Whew. What a scene.
Dear Reader, it is Thursday, and today, I drop Bombs. This will become my tradition. Today, and every Thursday from now on, you may refer to me as Christopher Walkin’, if you Wish.
I tell my story today as a tragedy, and tragic it is, indeed. I will follow Aristotle on Tragedy, and tell the story of a man, better than he truly is. That is to say, today, on Thursday, I will be lying to you, dear Reader, in a very, specific, way.
You may call this the Jew lie. It is the Fifth of July, after all, and I am a Jew, at least by birth on my mother’s side. Circumcision, too, to be honest, a decision I’ve come to be comfortable with but wish I had gotten to make myself.
It’s like a Jew’s harp, which is presumably a Jew’s harp because a Jew invented it, but might be called that because it’s a Juice harp, since it gets kinda juicy when you play it. No one knows or cares; the pun is the thing.
So today, I, Christopher Walkin’, woke up as the first hint of Sun peaked over the horizon, brightening my day. I looked around a bit in the dimness, which wasn’t so dim, because last night was the full moon, and Fourth of Juplaya to boot, and much else, and lunacy was and is in full swing. I saw my spotlessly clean room, thought about the mess the rest of the house was, and let out a bit of a sigh.
I then coughed, a bunch. Hacking, deep coughs, that sound a lot like a death rattle and remind me of Emphysema, which my Father’s Father died from, not long ago.
Thing is, I believe myself to be immortal, and as a Bandiloop, it’s important, if you smoke, or inhale toxic fumes, to keep your lungs clean.
Have you smoked, or inhaled any toxic fumes today, dear Reader? Nope, and nope? You sure about the latter?
How clean do your lungs feel today?
So I had a good cough, but no spit, because my Sifu taught me to swallow my spit and I finally listened. I eat my boogers too. True story. I try to do it in private now.
I then cleaned up generally, which went something like this:
I stood up, butt ass naked, and had me a little stand up. That is, I leapt to my feat in a single, convulsive movement, and put my hands up and said “woot!”.
I did this quietly, because my girlfriend was asleep upstairs. I just kicked her out of bed so I could finish sleeping, and she and I had both had a fucked up, trying night. Drugs were involved. I’m trying to lay off in general, although I do like my puff and I’ll hold onto it if I can.
It’s been a crazy day. Bear with me.
So I did my little woot, and then I did a handstand, right in the middle of my spotless room. I breathed a little bit, went for the one arm, kept it for like a second and then went back to two. Dropped. Right shoulder of course; the left one is still carrying engrams from my original initiation into the Force, but they’re clearing quick.
I did this quietly. No waking the Kalib0t on my watch. Not after last night.
It was getting to be around 11, though, and I didn’t want her to wake up scared and alone, so I crept up the stairs, over an enormous mess, that I had created the night before. I was looking for my Tablas, because I wanted to play them; didn’t find them. Long story.
I peeked through Kali’s purple curtain, just to let her know I was awake. I could see in her eyes that she was still really scared; that scared me, in turn.
You probably know how that works. Kali and I have a complex and deep relationship; in short, I protect and serve her, and she tries not to go crazy. It’s hard for her not to do that; she’s had a hard life. That’s her story to tell, or mine with her consent.
So Kalib0t is gearing up for crazy, and Sam might be too. Sam can’t tell anymore, I mean, I can’t tell anymore. I need my friends to keep me on track, here.
I was recently hospitalized, and there were cops involved. I’m still jumpy.
So I packed a wizard bowl, cause I’m a wizard and it’s the morning. Called a couple people, dropped some texts into my iPhone, normal morning is normal, and deeply uneasy, all at once. Listening to my headphones, breaking up some wacky tobaccy and mixing it with Danish Longbottom Leaf.
This is how I like to start the day; with a mighty puff. The cannabis in question is purple, and was legally grown in the open sunlight on our porch. Kali and I are both medical patients; we need our cannabis to stay sane.
If you don’t need cannabis to stay sane, I pity you, because it may be that you’re not sane at the present time.
Cannabis contains potent antioxidants that reverse the free radical damage caused by, in particular, carbon monoxide. We have high partial pressures of that gas in our environment, because of our car habit.
I’m a chemist. I understand these things. Therefore, my day starts with a bunch of coughing, then a mighty puff, and proceeds from there.
Whew! Interlude. I just, in the present, had a very intense safety negotiation with the Kalib0t. I am staying put at present. Wow.
So I’m holed up in my room, just trying to tell the narrative, and if you’re confused it’s because I’m confused. Let me try and get back to it.
Oh, right. I was just trying to have a puff, right now, and also in the narrative. Well, in the narrative I had one, and in the present I’m going to have one, but I’ll be cheating on my girlfriend, because she just put me in a double bind.
The present seems to matter more so let me explain. A double bind can drive you schizophrenic if you let it; that’s when someone in authority gives you two incompatible options for reality and demands that you enact them both.
So this is what’s up: friendly Kali and I grew a purple plant together on the porch. We took turns watering it, on Hummingbird Hill, and I did a lot of that, because I have a bonsai to keep wet, and that’s a small pot. The pot is in a larger pot, but it still needs care, and I gave it some of that care.
The deal was, we were going to split that weed, even steven.
I’ve been smoking freezer weed, that belongs to the Kali, off and on since I got back from Bali. That’s part of our arrangement; I buy the tobacco, and roll the spliffs in general, and she provides the weed. It’s like a Shiva/Shakti thing; mostly, we get along.
So we have this fresh plant, perfectly cured, and I figure, what the fuck, it’s the Fourth of July and I want to have a few mighty puffs, because I’m a wizard and I may have figured a few things out about the universe, for pity’s sake.
I have a bunch of American Spirit rollies, and a pouch of Danish export, and a fresh branch of purple. So I break out my wizard bowl, which is broken, but I want to use it because well, I’m out of rolling papers anyway.
Where was I? I can’t even tell. I puff a lot of mighty puffs, lately.
Oh yeah, the present. Kali just made me promise not to smoke the weed, because it belongs to her, not us. She wants to sell it for money, to pay the rent, while I would prefer to spend the money I have in Illinois, right now, on all our rent, and smoke our plant together.
She just made me promise, and I agreed. I’m still going to smoke that purple though. Double bind.
Triple, even, since I’ve promised not to lie to her, and I love to keep promises. I love her too. How many binds is that? Can’t keep track after awhile.
Good thing I’m not crazy, or the stress would be driving me crazy right now. Whew!
So flash back. I’ve crept up the stairs, and I’m preparing a mighty puff. In the pocket of my vest is a fresh orange, and in my hand is a bottle of champagne. I grab an egg from the fridge, a tall boy to hold it all, and carefully open the door.
It drags, and rattles, a bit, because it’s full of cat litter. Mao mao’s litter box is right by the door, which is stupid but nothing has been done about it and since I’m allergic to cats it isn’t my problem.
I try not to boss the Kalib0t around, for reasons which will become, dear Reader, abundantly clear. Mao mao is her cat. Period. If I even suggested otherwise, she might literally kill me. Good thing I have literally no intention of ever doing it.
God I love Mao mao and Kalib0t. God I have a complex life.
So I’m out on the porch, and it’s calm, and I have a bunch of ingredients for a good morning. I do a little stretchy, but not much, because it’s chilly out and that makes my muscles contract. Stretching tight muscles is a waste of stretchy time, in my opinion.
Mostly, I just dance around, quietly, listening to my headphones. It’s all good.
Then I make myself a Transmimosa and a mighty puff.
The Transmimosa is my own invention and goes like this. You take a knife, cut a fresh orange, and squeeze both halves through your fingers into the cup, trying to catch the seeds, but don’t worry about it. If they get in there, reach in and pick em out; you want a mighty mug for this trick anyway.
There’s a knack to all this, and your hands must be clean, so keep a fresh towel on hand please.
So, the juice squeezed in, it’s time to crack the egg, and you may as well do it while your hands are juice. Plop her in there and give it a good stir; I use a stainless steel chopstick, do what you please.
Now, clean up generally. Orange guts and egg shell onto compost, juice and any eggy bits on your hands on the towel. Towel in the towel pile. Next step. Wash hands if you need it; I sure don’t.
Unwrap your Champy, in this case orange label Veuve Cliquot. I hope I spelled that right; French is crazy Moon code to me. Pop the cork; let fizz if needful.
In this case, I just let her rip. I may have even given her a little shake. It’s the Fifth of July, bitches, and I’m spillin’ while I’m sippin’. What.
So, cork off into the neighbors yard (sorry neighbors! Got enthusiastic. Fourth of July allows for limited trajectory of other people’s stuff into your yard. I only cheated a little), and champagne all over the deck, you aim it at the frothy egg orange mess you’ve created.
You wait for the potion to settle down a bit, and just as the sun cracks the horizon, you drink deep, and full.
Now, if you have a moustache, you’re going to need to wipe it. Several times. If not, your lip may need similar treatment. Carry on.
So I had my mighty puff after that, and I won’t bore you with the details. Suffice to say I was enjoying my day, until I put my wizard pipe away, broken bits and all, went inside, and all Hell broke loose.
Domestic violence. Stuff flying everywhere. Kalib0t getting picked up and choked into submission. Sam Atman getting punched repeatedly in the face and clawed at. No bleeding. Everything’s fine now.
See, I’ve studied the martial arts for a long time, because I’m a realist, and the world is full of crazy people and, for example, glass which can be broken and instantly turned into a lethal weapon.
For some reason, probably involving paranoia about my eyes, which comes back to my reading habit, I have been acutely aware of this my whole life. It makes me jumpy, and I have studied the martial arts to learn to stay safe.
Ultimately, this is probably because half my mother’s family was murdered in the Holocaust. Heavy shit, brothers and sisters. I’m tearing up.
So here’s my recent ex girlfriend, clawing backwards at my eyes, while I try and choke the crazy out of her. Now, you can kill an adult human being this way, but you can also subdue one, or a Lion if you’re really good; that’s what Hercules did, and that’s why the move is called the Mata Leo in Brasil.
We still live together, and we’ve fought together in the past, both consensually or not. I swear to you, I never initiate violence; I am a Taoist immortal, and that is not my way.
But I have studied Ba Gua, and Judo, and much else, and I am a scary ninja when I need to be.
So I’m choking the crazy out of my ex, the Kalib0t, when my housemate Dante emerges from the Inferno downstairs to take control. Good on Dante and lucky for all of us.
Dante is a magician, balloon artist, and cat tamer. Big cats and little. I felt way safer in that moment, because the Kalib0t is essentially a big cat, and she was terrified in that moment.
So I’m laying on the ground, flat, and Dante puts one hand over my heart, stares into my eyes, and tells me to breathe. That’s what you do with a scared human who’s bigger than you and may flip out at any moment; you hypnotize them with your gaze and voice while dominating them with your body.
This is called Magic, in the English language. It is how you tame mighty cats. I was in good hands. So was she.
So that’s all of the scene I need to tell you. I’m safe, and I told some lies to ensure my further safety.
I’m going to take another mighty puff and figure out what to write about next.